| perhaps this isnt the end, I just have more to say and no one to speak it to.
Have you ever had the feeling that your not loved?
Have you been kind, and overwhelmed, but stayed true and gentle and yet all you get is a cold shoulder and no support?
Well recently I've distanced myself from love, not to an entirety but I've lost all hope, and I do not feel its my fault. I cannot be relied upon to pick up the phone every time, go out searching everyday, if I see her the most I have time for is a wave and maybe a visit to the locker if she's even there. But I'm a very busy person as is she. I just don't know.
and I needed to put that out there.
-mike
|
| |
| yeah I think this is the 2nd death of xanga...
goodbye cruel world.
|
| |
| double date to ironbirds
family had a tough day oye...
and
did I mention the double date with Christian and Brittney
that was a good time, and then we played soccer in the dark behind Marys house.
good times
love my friends
love mare
=Dpeace and love
mike
|
| |
| Its been a very long time since I actually made a post.
Hhmm.
Well stuff has happened. Anything interesting? Not too interesting, I'm in the midst of getting a job at les Safeway. That should be fun allright I suppose. My parents are like, work is good, you get money and its fun. And never once have I ever seen work = fun. Thats not a lesson they teach you in school I suppose. But nonetheless. Money = good. So therfore, by the transitive property, Job = good. But just now my mother asked me to take the clothes out of the dryer and do some other stuff that I didnt really pay attention to, but nonetheless I will do it. Because well she is me lovely mum. And thats why, if I dont do it, she wont be happy, and again the transitive property comes into play, and I wont be happy. It really seems like the world is a never ending cycle of work. Does it suck? Yes. Is there anything I can do about it? No. So I suppose I will sit back in my floatation ring, and go with the flow. Really, more than anything in the world, I would love to work as a musician, or an actor. Because 1) I'm damn good at both. and 2) people say that when someone goes for something they really strive, for and they work at it, and then are working it, it fufills their lives. And thats what I want, I dont want to be some corporate desk jockey, dealing with tax returns, and shite like that. I want to love what I do, even the sucky parts. That way I can look back on my life, and go. You did good mike, you did real good.
And thats my take, I hope that all of you will find the strength to persue something like what I dream of, whether it be sports, or being a CDJ. Regardless, just live to be your best, and not whatevers left.
Peace and Love,
Mike
|
| |
| things have happened.
but tell me about your life.
<3 Mare Mare
Peace and love,
Mike
|
| |
